A few nights ago I learned that Jaxon isn’t a fan of riding in the shopping cart. I can’t say that I blame him. Those things are probably germ-infested anyway.
Poor guy was so anxious. I have been pretty anxious too, lately. But that is changing. I have a lot of things I want to accomplish! Life is TOO fleeting to worry it away. In my mind I think I have this version that I want to live my life. I want to wake up early, go for a run, have all my meals planned, come back home and still have energy to put in a little gym session before I curl up into a ball and watch an episode (or three) of Gilmore Girls, before reading a good book as I fall to sleep. On the weekends, I wake up early and run long before starting the day exploring and doing with people I love! In actuality, I beat myself up when I don’t accomplish all that I want to in a day!
What am I going to do to bridge the gap between the life I have now and the life that I want? I’m going to plan a little. Meal planning requires an entire day’s worth of work if you don’t already have veggies chopped and frozen. I’m going to be disciplined enough to stick with it, without the self-shaming. And beyond that, I’m just going to do it (Nike. Namaste.).
I have realized that I have become a complacent dreamer, and while dreams are pretty and ambitious, they ain’t gettin’ ya anywhere. Be a doer. Dreams don’t come true if we don’t act.
Oh, and what have I done to silence the “what ifs” in my mind prone to worry? I started answering them with faith and just seeing them for what they really are, thoughts. Thoughts that talk a big, scary, worried game, but really are all bark and no bite. “What if you don’t find a job when you move to be with Zack?” “Well, God is my provider. He gives us the desires of our heart if we delight ourselves in Him. All things work together for good to those who love Him, and that’s me! He has already been working on my behalf to line up a great job for me!” “What if you lose your job here?” “Then I lose my job! I have to live off my savings for a while- SO WHAT.” If fear and worry can put such a damper on your day, imagine what speaking faith can do to your attitude!
Oh, And I run. Running is a great help in time of worry, but more on running next.
Keep moving forward 🙂
Psalm 145:16; Psalm 37:4; Romans 8:28