Have you ever listened to a podcast and thought, “This had to have been created especially with me in mind. ”
^Maybe that’s a bit narcissistic, but I listened to a TEDx Talk today on youtube and swore homegirl was talking directly to me.
She started her talk by asking the audience “What do you want?” I paused the video and grabbed a notebook- ya girl has a LIST of things she wants. Including: wake up before work with enough time to RUN AND put makeup on <- things I struggle with most days.
And then she explained why we don’t have the things that we want- because we’re “fine”. Statistically there’s a 1:400,000,000,000 chance that WE WERE EVEN BORN. wuuut. WE ARE AMAZEBALLS (my words, not hers), MORE than 1 in a million; not fine. Getting the things that we want require FORCE, as in “I am forcing myself to not hit the snooze button and wake up and choose to go run, or choose to _____ fill in the blank, whatever you want.” Go and get it. It’s simple, but it isn’t easy.
Whatever you want: abs, better savings, more travel, to be able to do a pull-up- it requires force. and you are NEVER going to feel like changing your routine- but by changing your routine, you are no longer “fine”- you are CHANGING YOUR WORLD. Sounds obvious, but it was a good reminder for me today, and confirmation that I was on the right track yesterday.
Speaking of yesterday, the run:
Ran outta watta! Much faster than anticipated. I was dehydrated, and I didn’t even know it. Then I started getting awful UC cramps and I was praying to Jesus that I didn’t have to squat on the side of the road and have a violent moment. DIDN’T HAPPEN! PRAISE! I kept going, and actually walked the last .75 mile, and you know what? It felt good to accomplish my goal.
I DID NOT FEEL LIKE RUNNING 4 MILES YESTERDAY. I FELT LIKE RUNNING ZERO MILES.
But I did it, and it felt good. GEWD.
The reminder, “You are never going to feel like changing” is resonating so much with me. Maybe part of it is juggling life with a chronic disease, but I am constantly checking how I feel; always “listening to my body.” This can be really beneficial, but also…I DON’T FEEL LIKE RUNNING- I FEEL LIKE STAYING IN BED AND WATCHING GREY’S ANATOMY. If I stay in bed all day living at Seattle Grace, the only thing changing will be my energy levels, and they will plummet to match my lazy bones actions. I WANT to be strong; I WANT to be out on the road running. What I want has to be greater than what I feel if I know that I’m healthy enough to be achieving it, and right now I AM- PRAISE. Want > Feeling. Go.Get.It. And that I did (am doing).
Today: HR health screen for zeh new job!
Zack said my shirt looked like “an old man’s shirt from the seventies” and I think that’s exactly what I liked about it- ha!
In my morning shake:
Hashtag life with Crohn’s is glamorous
Hashtag oops this was full of dairy and now I hurt
Running errands with Mister Jax on a pretty day = one of my favorite things
Hope your Wednesday leaves you feeling accomplished- YOU’RE ONE IN 400,000,000,000! What do YOU want?
Words from my favorite doctor:
“You’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting,
So… get on your way!” -Dr. Seuss
The youtube behind my rambling thoughts: